I have some amazing women in my life and at the same time, not so great. Each one of them has touched my life in some manner which has taught me the value of a real friend. I am not the easiest person to be friends with because I am very guarded. Those who know me, understand this.

I saw this article and it hit home and wanted to share. We Are Friends for a Reason

Love and hugs!


I have stalled on this and decided to share it in a safe space; Here.

For others to read and maybe relate too and share feedback. Good, bad, ugly, whatever, in some way, I fear we have all been affected by addiction.

I owe you an apology. 

I haven’t been a good friend lately.

There’s an “elephant in the room” and it’s a delicate topic.

Sometimes words can be harsh, which in the past have ruined relationships. 
I have remained silent and pouted which isn’t my style. I was accused of playing favorites and making excuses for you. Turns out, I was protecting you as well as myself. Not my proudest moment. We have had our share of roadblocks and I fear now we are simply avoiding each other altogether.

I haven’t been the best support system for you because I didn’t agree with it. I feel like you are hiding and looking for a quick fix rather than deal with the issue. I needed to support you better and I let my personal feelings interfere. This battle is something you have to fight every hour of every day, not me. Addiction isn’t something that goes away. It’s all consuming and damaging. It requires constant attention.

I hate it.

But I hate even more is…
– that you don’t see that you have a drinking problem.
– the excuses you make because of it.
– how embarrassing it is to hang out with you because you can’t be trusted to not drink

– that you let it take priority over your friends, children & marriage. 
– How your drinking has resulted in injuries to yourself and others.
– how you couldn’t remember how you got hurt. 
– that you let it affect your job and lied about it.
– that you let it affect our friendship. 
– how when I brought it to your attention – you shut me out! 

That last one upsets me most. 

A real friend calls us out on our crap. You have with me but I feel that when I offered the same, it wasn’t received as well. It made me aware of the value of our friendship maybe wasn’t as important to you as it was to me. It’s annoying being friends through that. I stopped being a doormat years ago and am in no hurry to become one again.

So much has changed and our friendship has suffered. 

We aren’t entitled to anything other than what we wake up to each day. That is to be a better version of the person we were the day before. To be grateful for the new day given to us. Everything else is a gift, there are no guarantees. 

I have watched people I love take the road of addiction over everything else and not been able to help them because only they can decide that. No one can force someone to change unless that person wants too. What I can do is walk away because its better than watching you behave this way. Which in time one would think would get easier but really, its still hard and it really, really sucks.

All that said, I still love you.